I danced today. The background was bright white and the floor matched perfectly. It Almost felt as if I was doing the waltz. I danced with a white dress with a touch of lace across the bottom, sweeping the ground ever so softly. My hair was curled and pinned back, with a sunflower connecting both strands of hair together. It wasn’t a wedding, a party, or a friendly gathering.
It was the Father.
I danced with the father this morning.
It wasn’t an extraordinary vison, or a once in a lifetime dream. It was just the father demonstrating his love for me in such a simple and intimate way. I often times forget how much the father wants to just simply be with me and often times take advantage of the time we spend together.
While we were dancing, He spoke something to me. It wasn’t with a loud voice, or a stern attitude, but instead with a gentle whisper. I could feel the love and grace from His tone while speaking.
He asked me, “Do you want to dance with me?”
“Yes! I’d love to dance with you, Father!” You could feel the excitement in my voice.
He responded with so much grace, “Okay. But now let me take the lead.”
If I’m being honest, I didn’t exactly know why I was coming to CGA. I was going to pursue the Worship track, but it didn’t end up happening and so I switched to Leadership track instead. They now offer breakouts on Fridays and we get the choice to choose one of the following four options.
Worship, storytelling, beauty for ashes, or church planting…guess which one I’m not doing.
Yep, Worship.
I came in to this season expecting to pursue worship, because it was comfortable for me. It’s something I am comfortable doing. I made the choice to do worship track. I took the lead role in the dance and told the Father to follow. The Father told me this is a season for me to be uncomfortable. It’s a season of growth in more ways than just one. And now its time for me to switch roles.
I don’t know exactly what breakout I am doing, but what I do know is this. The Lord is calling me higher. Calling me to be uncomfortable. Calling me to be the leader that He has already equipped me to be. This isn’t a season for me to learn who I am, because I know who I am in Him. This season is for me to take who I am and who the Father sees me as, and lead others with that.
If the person who poured into me let their cup stop flowing, I wouldn’t be who I am now. If I sit back and let my cup stop flowing, the person I am supposed to pour into wouldn’t become filled with anything other than my own opinions. It’s a never ending cycle.
And I want to pour into someone like someone did for me.
I am so excited for this season of my journey with the Father.
Life is great. Jesus is great. I am loving life here in Gainesville.
If you feel lead to donate towards helping me reach the next deadline on December 1st you can do so at the top of the page by clicking the donate button. If we are all fully funded by December 1st, we are taking off on a mission trip for one week to put all our leadership training into action! Exciting times! I only have 1,740 left until I reach that goal! Whoop whoop!
Love you all and im looking forward to this next season with you, the father, and many, many, new friends!
-Ansleigh!
